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It's been a while [Mon, December 31st, 2007 at 1:36pm]
[ mood | weird ]

I am in probably the strangest mood I have been in in a really long time. I don't even know how to describe it. I feel like a mix between sad, contemplative, and hopeless. And it's all thanks to a story. Since I've gotten home from school I have been pretty lazy, mostly I've been sleeping late and reading. A few days after I got home I read "A Thousand Splendid Suns" in less than 24 hours. It was by the same guy who wrote "The Kite Runner" and of course it was terribly sad, but it had a hopeful ending. It was about 2 women in Afghanistan who are married to the same terrible man. It was soooo good, I obviously couldn't put it down. It made me cry, like really cry. I've cried in books before, a few tears isn't uncommon, but at this one part near the end I had to put the book down and get a tissue I was crying so much.

Next I read "The Other Boleyn Girl." My mom had read it a few years ago, and she told me I would like it. So I read it all 600 something pages of it and loved it. It's about Mary Boleyn, the younger sister of Anne, Henry VII's 2nd wife. The whole book I knew that Anne was going to be beheaded thanks to Mr. Crook's little rhyme from 10th grade, and it was really good but sad too. Although sad, it ended with hope.

But then I got Atonement. I saw a preview for the movie months ago and of course I wanted to see it. A love story set in the old days with Keira Knightly and a cute boy and World War 2, totally my kind of movie. So with a gift card I got for Christmas from Barnes and Noble I went and bought the book. When I finished it, I didn't think it was as good as I had expected, but now that I realize that I can't stop thinking about it I like it more. Even thought it's terribly depressing. After everyone left my house Saturday night after watching the Aggies lose, I got ready for bed and finished reading Atonement at 2:30 in the morning. I had to wake up at 7:30 to go to church, then went to the Texans game and was in the sun a lot, so I thought I'd go to be early because it was a long day on less than 5 hours of sleep. But then I decided to see if I could watch the movie online, and I could. So I watched a bootleg version of Atonement where people moving up and down the rows in the theater blocked the view and the picture went in and out of focus and I couldn't read the subtitles when they talked in French, but I wantched it until late. And realized that I was so anxious to finish the book that I didn't read the ending right. Most of the movie was almost exactly like the book, the very end was understandably different because a character had to explain what happened rather than the narrator. But I read the ending of the book wrong. It was even more sad that I had thought.

After reading the last couple pages again, I realized that I was stupid, and then got really sad. The whole premise of the story is that Robbie and Cecelia are childhood friends, he is the son of her maid. One night they realize that they love each other and express this love, but Cecelia's little sister Briony is a little bitch. Briony thinks that she is protecting her sister, and in doing so tells a lie that sends Robbie to jail for 3 years. Cecelia separates herself from her family completely, and moves to the city to become a nurse. She and Robbie write letters to each other and finally meet when he is realeased. They only have a little time, she is on her lunch break and he was in the army now. It's the first time they see each other in 3 and a half years. Robbie is about to go to army training, and when he is done, he and Cecelia were going to spend a week in a house on the beach to finally have the time together that they dreamed of. But the war starts, and they never get that chance.

So 5 years after the lie is told, Robbie is in France, the army is reatreating and the only thing that keeps him going is his thoughts of Cecelia. His love for her is his motivation to keep going even though he is injured and starving and tired and has seen horrible, horrible things. So him and 2 others arrive in Dunkirk and wait for boats to carry them across the Channel. Meanwhile, Briony is training to be a nurse and at 18 realized the terrible things her lie caused. She wants to make amends with her sister. She doesn't expect forgiveness, but she hopes that maybe she can get Robbie's record cleared. Cecelia ddin't respond to her letter, so Briony goes and finds her sister's apartment. Briony starts to explain herself, and Robbie walks in. Robbie was alive and was with Cecelia. Cecelia had to hold him back from attacking Briony, he was so angry and rightfully so. The couple tells Briony that they will never forgive her, but gives her directions on how to explain things to their parents and the police. And then Briony leaves and Robbie and Cecelia have a few hours together before he goes back to the army.

Then it fast forwards 59 years. Briony, who was always writing as a child, is an old woman who has written her last novel entitled Atonement, the book you had just read, the part of the movie you had just seen, was Briony's novel. But there was a big difference between the story and the truth, the part that I misread the first time. Briony never went to visit her sister, Cecelia and Robbie never had one last time together. Robbie died the night before the army left Dunkirk. In the movie it shows him not waking up, holding all of Cecelia's letters in his cold hands. And Cecelia was killed a couple months later when London was being bombed by the Germans. The first time I realized that they both died, but I guess I didn't fully grasp that they never had those final couple days together. It's just soooo sad. Because of a wicked, wicked lie that Briony told, Robbie never got to go to medical school, never got to marry Cecelia like he wanted to so badly. His life, and in turn Cecelia's life, was ruined. They never got their week by the sea, they had a few moments in a library, and a few more over tea. Their story was sad, but unlike most books I have read there was no hope in the end. They lived apart, and they died apart. Right before the movie ended it showed Robbie and Cecelia by the cottage on the beach that they should have spent a week. They are laughing and playing by the water, in love and happy. That never happened, and watching it was sad.

This was sad enough, but then I got even more depressed. This is just a story, but how many thousands of men did not return home to their sweethearts, their wives, their mothers, their sisters. And how many of the soldiers did come home to find their loved ones had not made it. This during every war, happening right now. Then I got even more sad. I am a ridiculously hopeless romantic. Absolutely hopeless. I can watch movies with happy endings, I can write stories that end at the worst hopeful, but they aren't real. Robbie dying the night before he would have returned to Cecelia, although fictional in this case, that was real for many people. Half of marriages end in divorce, that is real. The fact that I will not get my Cinderalla ending, that is real. I'm too wrapped up in daydreams and stories and movies. I worry about not meeting the guy I'm going to marry before I get out of college. I can dream and fantacize and daydream all I want, but it's not real.

I just feel so weird. I've never felt like this. I keep thinking about what a little bitch Briony is, how she ruined Robbie and Ceceila's lives. But that's just a book, just a movie. Then I think of Robbie lying dead on the ground when people are leaving for home, holding on to all he had of his love. Then I thought of the movie "All Quiet on the Western Front" where the main character was the last soldier killed before peace was declared. Somebody had to be the last one. They were hours away from home, but didn't make it.

I don't like this way I'm feeling, but I can't stop thinking about Atonement. I have a runny nose and a little bit of a sore throat and all I feel like doing is lying down and watching Project Runway. I just hope tihs passes and I can go back to my happy daydreams. Although I know that I'm silly and foolish and naive and dumb, I didn't feel like this.

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

Let's run away from here [Mon, August 6th, 2007 at 7:18pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I was running. I had no reason to run except for that I wanted him to chase me. I t was down some dirth path in the woods and you could hear the birds chirping their summer songs even above our laughter. It was a beautiful sunny day but I could hardly tell because the branches above our heads were so thick. It was almost sunset so everything was given that yellow tint, making his smile shine even brighter. Suddenly, he fell and for just a moment his laughter faded as he winced in pain; but as soon as he realized what he had done the two of us laughed until our sides ached.

I turned around and slowly walked towards him, trying my best to suppress my giggles at his torn pants and soiled shirt but failing miserably. I took a seat next to him on the dirt as he shyly showed me his scraped up hands. Of course, only a kiss could make them better. After I obliged, he returned the favor.

My job doesn't really require a lot of thinking, so I have a lot of time to daydream. I've been working on a story and that takes up a lot of my thoughts. I'm so sick of work and Houston and I want to go to my brand new beautiful house in College Station. This is probably the worst summer ever. No camp. No UM ARMY. No mystery trip. Not a whole lot of friend hanging outness. Bleh. It's time for school to start!

2 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

Depart oh night, fade away you stars, at dawn I shall win [Sun, June 24th, 2007 at 1:20pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

So I'm pretty sad right now. My brother is on his way to UM ARMY right now. And I'm sitting here. Being sad. This is the 1st summer I haven't gone on a mission trip with my church since I was 11. This sucks. Plus, my brother is gone again. He's been gone all summer. He just got back from a week and a half at Connectiuct slash Naval Academy on Friday morning, and he left again. And the airline lost his bag so him and my mom had to go out and buy all new stuff for him to take. I used to fight with my brother all the time, but since I went to college we get along much better, he's pretty much my best friend. And I'm really really really really really jealous that he is out there sleeping on an air matress and working in the heat and having fun and serving God and being awesome and this week I plan on being bored at work. Not fair.

I wish I had been able to go to college UM ARMY, but my brilliant youth director decided to wait until 3 days after we made reservations for Disney World to say that it was the same week we were in Florida. UM ARMY is always the highlight of my summer and I'm really upset I'm not there right now.

On the other hand, if you didn't know I cut off all my hair. 10.5 inches were sent to Locks of Love this week. That was a big change, I'm still getting used to it, but I do like it. I've been listening to opera lately. Random? Very. Beautiful? Definitely. I really really like it, even though I can't understand what they're saying, it's beautiful. And I've decided when I get a boyfriend he's going to take me to see one and he'll love it too lol.

I feel like going somewhere or doing something, but have no idea what. I really want to go to the beach I think, I haven't been in like 2 years, that would be fun. Or go on a big long road trip to somewhere really random. Or just go somewhere nice and outside where it's not really hot or always raining (aka Houston) and just sit and write or read This Side of Paradise (Which I just started and like so far) I just want to get away, I just need to figure out where to and how I'm gonna get there.

3 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

All I need is you next to me [Sun, May 27th, 2007 at 12:01am]
[ mood | blah ]

So I haven't posted in a while. Not a whole to say I guess. Freshmen year is over and it was amazing. It was better than I ever could have hoped for. Plus I got back from Disney World which of course was fabulous. I got a job without having to look for it, I will be working at a pediatric dentist, we'll see how that goes. And tomorrow, but I guess technically today, is my 19th birthday. Life is pretty good for me.

A few months ago I "adopted" a soldier in Iraq. I write letters and e-mails and send him packages. His name is Sean and I don't really know a whole lot about him except that he's a Cubs fan, and I'm pretty sure he's like 40. It always makes my day when I hear from him and I really enjoy sending him stuff. Anyways, I checked my e-mail yesterday when I got home and I had one from him. I got really excited, but when I read it I got really sad. He apologized for not staying in touch the past few weeks because he'd been really busy. The 3 soldiers that went missing belong to the unit he is working with. He and thousands of others were searching for them. The day after he sent me the e-mail one of them was found dead. He went on to ask me to keep them and their families in my prayers and thanked me for all the support. "I know I have told you before, but I wanted to tell you again, thank you for supporting the men and women of the United States Armed Forces. It amazes me the amount of support, regardless of your personal opinion of the war. It is more appreciated than perhaps you understand." He thanked me. What did do I do? He's out there risking his life and he thanks me. It should be the other way around times a billion. Who am I to deserve thanks? I write a few letters and e-mails, I go shopping for snacks and magazines, I stand in line at the post office, and I keep the troops in my prayers.

I had been in Disney World when all this happened. I looked up online about the missing soldiers and all I could think about is how hard they work over there everyday and how many sacrifices they continously make. Even though I don't know Sean personally, it makes me feel much more connected to all those soldiers now. It's just really made me think the past day or two. What made me so lucky? I have the best family and friends anyone could ever ask for. I've never had any serious problems with my life. Why am I here in my air conditioning, home from Florida, and he's over there thanking me? I don't know. It's weird. And I don't know how much I like it.

3 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

I should probably be sleeping right now [Wed, April 4th, 2007 at 1:03am]
[ mood | happy ]

Today was a really good day. And that makes me really happy.

First of all, I got 2 quizzes back in geology and I got 100's on both of them. So that was good. Then walking back from geology, I saw Antanas Kavaliauskas AKA the really tall Lithuanian basketball player AKA my boyfriend. So that was really exciting. Then I went to lunch with Kara, Katie, and Brian, and that was good. But then I got a tummy ache, so that was bad, but we watched the 1st half hour of Heavyweights before going to math. Math was really boring, as usual, but my friend didn't fall asleep today, so that was good. Then after I got out, I went over to west campus to work on my info project. 3 hours later I finished. Yay!! That was so exciting it made my day.

Then we went to the rec center and played volleyball. At first we only had 4 people, then more people kept joining in and by the time we left we had enough people for 2 whole teams. It's fun to play with random people. Plus volleyball is really fun. I jammed my thumb really bad and it still hurts, but it's ok. Then we went to dinner which was delicious and healthy, then I had ARC and Katie came with me even though she's not in it. We got out super early, so that was fun. Then we headed back over to Nicole's dorm and hung out for a while before Silver Taps.

Silver Taps is this thing at A&M that's held on the first Tuesday of every month to honor any students that have passed away in the past weeks. It's hard to describe, but it's really beautiful. Hymns start playing from the clock tower at about 10:00 and people start gathering in Academic Plaza. The last song is Amazing Grace and at 10:30 a special group of the corps of cadets starts to march in. It's really eerie and somber, and at the same time so moving. Thousands of people are standing in complete silence, it's so quiet that you can hear the guys marching in 3 or 4 minutes before you can actually see them. Their steps echo throughout and off the Academic Building. They're dressed in all white, 3 rows of 7, and the best way to describe them is toy soldiers. They're so in sync and perfect. They march to the middle and slowly fire a 21 gun salute. The guns are so loud, that even though I know it's coming it makes me jump. The birds all flee from the trees as the shots echo throughout campus. After 3 rounds, a special rendition of taps is played 3 times. Once to the north, west, and south, but not the east because the sun will never rise again on the fallen Aggie. It's really beautiful and touching that thousands of students stand there in the complete dark, giving up their time to honor people that they don't even know. Tonight I was standing there, listening to the music before it started and it was absolutely gorgeous. The moon lit up one of the oldest and prettiest bulidings on campus through a thin cloud, it was kind of spooky but I don't think I've ever wanted to capture an image in my mind as a picture more than I did tonight. The moon was so bright, it was shining on the Academic Building so perfectly, and there were so many people outside. It's hard to explain I guess, but it was really moving. When Silver Taps is done playing, people leave as silently as they came, back to their dorms and cars. It's so special. As sad and serious as it is, I love it.

After Silver Taps, Nicole, Katie, and I went to Wal-Mart. I recently came into pocsession of a gift card, that I found out had 50 dollars on it! So I bought some work out aerobic DVDS and Anastasia! I'm so excited about both of them. Then on the way home we sang songs from musicals. It was so fun. I love those girls so much. And I spend pretty much all my time with them that I'm not in class. And I like it that way. I'm just in such a good mood right now cause I'm done with my info project and singing showtunes and loving my friends and life in general. Plus I had a really good weekend in Houston seeing my the Astros play an exhibition game and my brother go out on a big date plus stopping on the way back to College Station to take pictures of bluebonnets/stone garden. It was awesome. I hope you have a good day!

Love these girls more than life

Me, Katie, and Bluebonnets!

Me and Nicole!

Future roomies!! I'm sooo excited about our house next year! Kara + Katie + Nicole + Me = LOVE!!!

it's a beautiful thing

Just a thought [Sun, March 4th, 2007 at 10:33pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

I thought that when someone had headphones in you weren't supposed to hear the music they're listening to. Call me crazy, but I think that when you have your headphones in with volume about halfway up you really shouldn't hear the music from someone else's headphones, especially when it sucks. But who knows, maybe the roommate will go deaf and there will be no more music for her to listen to.

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

Gig 'em Gates [Thu, December 7th, 2006 at 1:14pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

December 7, 2006

To the Aggie Family:

The United States Senate yesterday voted to confirm me as the 22nd
Secretary of Defense. I will be sworn in and take office on December
18th, and will resign as the 22nd President of Texas A&M that same day.

And so it is final. My last official act as President will be to
preside at the commencement ceremonies on December 15-16.

You already know that I am leaving this incredible University
reluctantly and with a heavy heart. By the same token, Aggies - more
than anyone else - understand why I must do so.

Our University is in good hands and on an upward course. All the major
initiatives - expanding the faculty, new undergraduate degree programs,
greater diversity, more than half a billion dollars in new
construction - 90% of it for academic facilities, and unprecedented
involvement of faculty, staff and students in decision-making - are on
track, taking us to new heights of academic excellence. It is now also
evident that our athletic program is on track to reach a new level of
national competitiveness.

As the end of my service as President draws near, please know that: for
the rest of my life I will always be an Aggie. Wherever I am, whatever
I am doing, as long as I live I will bleed Maroon.

A final request to all in the Texas A&M family. Never forget who we
are and where we came from. Never forget the Aggie Code of Honor. And
never forget the obligations of duty and honor and country.

God bless all of you, God bless Texas A&M, and God bless America.

Gig 'em Aggies.

Until we meet again.

Robert M. Gates
Texas A&M University

I got the e-mail and it made me kind of sad. I like him a lot. And I really don't want to study for finals even though I really really need to, can you tell I'm avoiding it?
<3 Casey

it's a beautiful thing

I want it to be break [Sun, November 12th, 2006 at 11:23pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Quote of the Day : "Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint on it you can."
-Danny Kaye

So it's been a while since I've updated this thing. And I thought of that when I was walking back from the library today. So I decided to write an entry so that anyone who still reads this thing can know what is going on with my life. Right now, I'm having a love/hate relationship with life in general. But it feels like more hate at the moment.

I love A&M. I mean I really, really love A&M. It's really pretty, the people are nice, I like all my professors, I'm doing pretty well in all my classes, and it's just an overall good place. It really struck me how much I love it on Friday. I was riding on a bus over to west campus and the radio was playing "A Fightin' Texas Aggie" by Robert Earl Keen. The song is pretty funny, and I love that even though I've heard it a thousand times, it doesn't really get old. And I was sitting there on the bus, looking around and everyone around me was singing along. He's a fightin' Texas Aggie and he jut don't give a damn, that he's got 6 parking tickets and his arm's gone pro again, but bonfire's built and varsity's horns have been sawed right off his head, he's a fightin' Texas Aggie and he will be till he's dead. Every Thursday the big place to go is The Texas Hall of Fame, they play half country half rap and everyone dances and such. At midnight they turn on the lights, everyone gets in a circle and put their arms around each other, friends and strangers, and everyone sings the Aggie War Hymn. It's so awesome. A&M gets a lot of crap from a lot of people and I think it's really dumb. Everyone here likes it here and those who hate A&M and don't even know the school are really stupid and I might just hate them. How many other colleges can say that their president is probably going to be the new secretary of defense? How about none. In case you didn't know, Dr. Robert Gates, the president of Texas A&M, will be taking over for Donald Rumsfeld as Secretary of Defense. It's pretty exciting. He was a really good president and did lot of stuff for the school but he knows his ultimate duty is to his country and we are all sooo proud of him.

I hate studying. I hate it hate it hate it. Of course I knew I'd have to study harder in college, but I guess I thought people kinda exaggerated it. They didn't. Today pretty all I did was sleep late, eat, and study astronomy. I have a feeling this test might own me. But I have gotten A's on my other 2 tests so I guess I'm not too too worried. I just need to study more tonight and all day tomorrow. Then I have 2 tests the week of Thanksgiving and possibly a paper due the day before Thanksgiving, a day that all other classes are cancelled. But hopefully my history prof will show mercy and cancel class and delay the paper. That would be fabulous. I'm just sick of reading about the life and death of stars. And I'm sick of not understanding the homework problems. But it's ok, it's probably my own fault cause I pay more attention to the sudokus and crossword puzzles in the Battalion than the teacher. I hate how my lab for that is on Thursday nights, but it's ok cause I love the people in the class. They make me laugh.

I love people. I love my friends, my old ones and my new ones. I love my small group for my business class. We had to make a commercial for an unsellable product, ours was rubber crutches aka really dumb. We wrote a song about a lazy guy who fakes being hurt and uses them to the tune of those Bud Light Real Men of Genius songs. We didn't even practice and we got the best in the class, it was really funny. I really like ARC - Aggie Recruitment Committee, the only club I am in right now. We had a big conference last weekend where 100 high school seniors came in from all over and they spent the weekend "experiencing Aggie life." It was really fun, and I made a bunch of friends in ARC. Hopefully for the conference in the spring I can be a DG leader, that would fun.

On the other hand, I hate boys. I hate how much bad luck I have with boys. I hate boys who are really cute and really nice and dance with you all night. Boys who your new friends think you knew before because of the way they look at you and smile. Boys who get your number and call you like they said they would and invite you to a party, but have bad timing because your friends decided to get drunk and you had to stay and drive them home. Boys who say they'll call again, but then don't. Boys who still don't call you after you left them a message because you kept getting asked about him from all the girls you went dancing with. Those boys are jerks. And I hate how I always read more into something then there probably is. And I hate how bummed out I got over a stupid boy I hardly know.

I love Reveille. That collie is BEAUTIFUL!! I saw her at SEAL last weekend when the guy came and told all the seniors about her and I got my picture taken with her. Then some day last week me and Glynna were walking around and a guy walks by with Reveille. We both go "She's so pretty!" and then a guy walking past us in the same direction of Reveille totally imitated us saying that, it was pretty funny.

I hate how sick I am of campus food and how I have to keep eating it because of my meal plan. I never thought I'd crave homecooked food so badly. I hate how I was doing so good at eating healthy, but the last week or so I've been eating soo much and most of it crap. It was funny cause me and my roommate went grocery shopping on Friday and we bought like all healthy stuff and then later that day I get a package from my mom filled with junk food. I hate how my car is about as far away from my dorm as possible. It's an almost 15 minute walk. SICK.

I love watching movies. I've been watching a lot of Disney movies lately with my roommate and it's sooo good. I love Disney so much. I love how today when I was studying I listened to High School Musical and loved it. And I love how I have netflix and get new DVDs every week or so. It's fun, and I would recommend it.

I hate Coach Fran. Pretty much everyone I know hates Coach Fran. He makes stupid calls like kicking a field goal when we're down by 4 with 3 minutes left in the game. I love football games, but I hate losing! Especially when we lose by one point in the last minute of the game, like we did yesterday. It was like the OU game or Tech game all over. Sick out.

The thing I hate most is something I have total control over. I hate how I haven't been going to church. I've only been twice the whole time I've been here, and I really don't have an excuse. Especially since there's a Methodist church practically across the street from my dorm. I went at least once a week all through junior high and high school and I had always promised myself I'd find a church in college. I haven't made much of a effort and that makes me really disappointed with myself. The one time I went to A&M Methodist, I went with Glynna and Clark. And all Glynna and I could think about was how much we missed John Wesley. I've gone there since I was 3 years old and I guess I didn't realize how different going somewhere else was going to be. I keep saying next week I'll go, but if nobody wants to go with me I don't. Which is awful. Or most of the time I just sleep till like 11 on Sundays. I want to go to Breakaway, the on campus worship service thing, but it's at the same time I have ARC meetings every week so I can't go. That's something I really need to change, and soon. I just need that back in my life.

I kinda hate, but kinda like how I should be studying right now, but have been writing this. I don't want to study anymore, but I know I really should. I am so not ready for the test Tuesday. We'll see how it goes. I guess that's it, have a nice day.
<3 Casey

4 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

[Thu, September 14th, 2006 at 2:55pm]
Quote of the Day : "Casey! Make out with me! You bring sexy back! Love <3 Gary Korn"
-Mysterious note found slipped under my door last week, I still haven't found out who this "Gary Korn" person is, but it makes me laugh

So, I think I'm finally used to this whole college thing. I even had my 1st test today. It was for astronomy and I think, or at least hope, I did pretty well. I studied a lot. This tons of reading thing for all my classes especially honors history is not so fun. But oh well, I like college a million times more than high school.

I'm going home for the 1st time this weekend. I think it's going to be weird. I'm kinda excited though, mostly about having some home cooked food. That'll taste soo good. I have to take a bunch of work home to do, but that won't be too bad. I actually miss my brother. I haven't seen him or talked to him in like 4 weeks. That's weird. I just got off the phone with my mom and I know that she's excited for me to come home. I'm excited for her to iron my clothes lol.

I have a huge gap between my classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays. I have astronomy at 11:10, but I got out after like 35 minutes because the test was short. I went and had lunch with Brian Lamb, came back and did my calc hw, and have been sitting in my dorm being lazy, and will continue to do so until my next class at 3:55. Calculus is so boring. Or should I say algebra II is so boring. It's so easy and some people are so dumb. Why didn't I get a 4 on my AP test?! Oh well, an easy class is a lot better than a hard one. Then tonight I have my astronomy lab and I'm hoping that we'll get let out early because it's cloudy like we did last week cause I'm going to go dancing with my roommate and some of her friends. It should be fun.

So yah, as you can probably tell I'm only writing this because I have an hour before my next class and nothing to do. So I'm adding pictures. Some of them are from the 1st week I was here, so they're almost a month old, but oh well. Here are some. I should post some of my dorm, but I don't want to clean it right now lol.

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it's a beautiful thing

(-: [Thu, August 31st, 2006 at 11:28pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

Quote of the Day : "Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about."
-Oscar Wilde

I love college. I love college a lot. I love it love it love it love it love it. I only miss home when I'm talking to my mom, and then I miss my family, but then I just think about how much I love college.

I love my dorm and my roommate and how my 2 of my best friends are here and how I'm making new friends everyday and how I'm probably gonna gain the freshmen 15 just from the amazing cookies in the cafeteria and how my classes don't start till late and how I really do like going to the library to study no matter how much of I nerd I feel and I love how my mom and Tara came to visit last Friday and my mom took my laundry home and did it and I loved my 1st astronomy lab tonight and I loved petting Reveille and I love seeing corps boys and I love how sexy those senior boots are and I love how my Russian astronomy professor gets confused sometimes and I love how there's so many people and I love getting home whenever I want and I love going dancing at the hall and sneaking Glynna in and I love driving my car Teddy around when I do even though it takes me like 15 minutes to walk to my garage and I love the MSC and I love how I bought 2 new posters for my dorm and I love how that kid that kinda dated Cheyenne on that MTV show was in my calc class on Tuesday and I love just hanging out and watching movies and I love walking around campus at night when it's quiet and maybe a little creepy with Brian and I love how the 1st football game is this weekend and I love how midnight yell is tomorrow night and I have a date! Wow, I really really like college.

I'm really glad I'm in business too because my 1 business class is pretty much a blowoff and I don't have to take all those hard science classes that other people I know have to and are stressing about. I like all my classes: psychology, business 101, history, astronomy, and business calculus. It's pretty exciting.

So in conclusion, I love college and I haven't updated in a while and I'm not tired and don't need to go to bed anytime soon cause my 1st class isn't till 1:50 tomorrow. Perhaps I'll update later with some pictures from the 1st game. Gig 'em Aggies! BEAT THE HELL OUTTA CITADEL! AAAAA! Have a nice day (:
<3 Casey

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

when did this happen? [Fri, August 18th, 2006 at 12:04am]
[ mood | confused ]

How did I get so old all of the sudden? I leave in like 3 days. When did I grow up and go off to college? I am so excited but at the same time I'm in like disbelief. I don't feel like an adult, I don't feel like I'm old enough for college but I am so psyched. Fish Camp just made me even more pumped for A&M, but kinda sad because I know my mom is going to have a real hard time about me leaving. I don't know. I think for pretty much the first time in my life I'm ready for change.

And on that note I have a new favorite song that I kinda relate too right now, but not totally. I really really really like it. You should too.

I've got the streets memorized
I see the faces embedded in my mind
I can't keep on fighting the urge to go
I've got nothing in common with this town I've come to know

I am so close now to walking away
About to walk a path I've gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can't sleep I'm dreaming way too loud
I'm so close now, so close now
to getting out

The same old lines, the same routine
Nothing changes and that's not good for me
I need a break. I need something new
I need to replace these old worn out broken shoes

I am so close now to walking away
About to walk a path I've gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can't sleep I'm dreaming way too loud
I'm so close now, so close now
to getting out

I've got that truck all loaded down
I should've known how hard it'd be leave this town

I am....
So close now to walking away
About to walk a path I've gotta take
I am packing up heading out
I can't sleep I'm dreaming way too loud
I'm so close now, so close now
to getting out

Ahh!! College!! Sunday!!
<3 Casey

it's a beautiful thing

wow [Sat, August 5th, 2006 at 12:04am]
[ mood | accomplished ]

Quote of the Day : "For me, writing is exploration; and most of the time, I'm surprised where the journey takes me."
-Jack Dann

161 pages. One hundred and sixty freaking one pages on Word. That's long. And that's finished. I finally finished a story that I'd been working on forever and a half. And today I actually finished it. Wow. Will I ever let anybody read it? Not very likely. But am I proud to actually start and finish a story that I don't think is really dumb for the first time ever? Yes.

A week ago I got home from camp. A week ago I got my car, which I have since named Teddy. In a week I will be at fish camp, and in about 2 weeks I'll be at school. Weird.

The other day I was at Target with my mom and my brother and there was a slip and slide on clearance for $2.70 and we bought it. I think I'm going to have a slip and slide party, anybody in?

I pretty much either babysat or cleaned all day. I got a lot of money, that is always good. My dad is having some party over at our house tomorrow so the entire house has to be spotless. Yay for clean house, boo for cleaning it.

Slime Olympics Sunday at church. I'm pretty excited, I'm not even gonna lie. Have a nice day!
<3 Casey

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

best week ever [Sat, July 29th, 2006 at 12:35pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Quote of the Day : "Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all the earth: make a loud noise, and rejoice, and sing praise."
-Psalm 98:4

Life is so amazing right now. I just got back from camp at Lakeview. I've gone to camp every summer since 4th grade and always have an amazing time. But this year blew them all out of the water. It was soooo awesome. I had the best group, the best cabin, and the best experience. I don't even know where to start.

I got to see Blake a boy from my group last year who is going to be a junior who I love to death and hang out with him. And I was really honored I guess when he came to me for advice about this girl he likes. I got to hang out with kids I see only for a week every summer and that's always too cool. I square danced and rode a mechanical bull for 50 seconds before falling off. Me, Kara, and Glynna got to be "disciples of the day" and read the stuffed scoop box and call out the mail. 2 mornings we got to sweat to the oldies Richard Simmons style. I tried ROPES course but freaked out and had to come down, but was still proud of myself for trying lol. We had this competition between small groups and ours won by 2,000 points and we didn't even cheat. This year was special not only because it's my last year as a camper, but because it's the last year as Houston Northwest District. They're breaking up all the districts in the conference for some reason and these churches we go with will never all be together again. So even if and when I come back as a counselor it's going to be totally different.

We had worship and small groups everyday and that owned of course. Small group 12 was made up of all graduated seniors so we were all going through the same things and it was awesome. Nate was our leader and he can go from being really goofy to really serious about God and that's really cool I think.

The last night was the best. First of all, Wayne Kerr led worship and he is beyond amazing. If you don't know him or his music, I highly encourage you too. But the best part was being able to actually give communion. Usually at camp on the last day the seniors give communion, but we did it the last night this year. And it was sooo special. I felt so unworthy but at the same time so incredibly honored. Who am I to give communion? Who am I to be able to watch people take it from the best view in the house? It was incredible. I witnessed people not only take communion but worship to some powerful music. I could see God on every single person's face and knew that they were being touched by Him. When communion was over I knelt down on the altar and started crying. Me cry? I know big surprise. But I was crying because I was so sad that this was my 9th and final time at Lakeview and that it was never going to be the same for anyone there again, and because I was so happy for all that God has done for me and the people in that room. Just being able to give communion and watch people was such an honor and amazing experience that I know I will remember forever.

So yesterday, after 4 short days at camp there was a final small group and a final worship. Both very special. Everyone in senior high camp was jumping up and down and dancing like crazy to the Happy Song when it hit me. This was it. I was sad but at the same time I didn't care because I truly was so happy, and everyone else around me was too. What a way to go out. What a way to end 9 great summers.

During that last group gathering I finally got a letter from my mom. And it said that I have a surprise waiting for me when I got home. I immediately thought it was a car. Because we've been looking at Escapes and Equinoxes for me to take to college for a few weeks now. So I got really excited and started telling everyone I was getting a new car. So on the way home I called my brother, who was the only one home, if I got a new car. He said no but I didn't believe him. I kinda expected it to be waiting in the driveway when I got home, but it wasn't. It wasn't there when my mom got home either. I was talking to her about it and she said that it was raining a lot that week and she was in a bad mood about the Astros losing so much that they didn't even go looking at cars. That sounded believable so I got disappointed. Then my dad came home and we were going to go get something to eat. Well he has one of those ear pieces for his phone and he just started talking on it. He said the neighbor down the street wants a new faucet so he was going to go check it out and be right back. I got mad cause I was so hungry and just wanted to get something to eat. But he came back soon and we all walked outside and there it was. My new car!!!!!

It's this dark gray 2005 Equinox and it's soo cute!!! It has leather seats and a moon roof and 13,000 miles on it. I love it so much!! I'm still so excited! They really tricked me, but it's okay, because I got a car!!! The convertible is now officially my brother's, which is a little sad because I love that car a lot, but I'm so psyched to take my new cute car to college! All it needs is a name. Yay!

So that is how the best week ever went. A beyond amazing time at camp having a great time with friends and growin in my faith and them coming home to the best surprise ever!! Pictures to come later. Have a nice day!
<3 Casey

it's a beautiful thing

I remember how you loved it so [Sat, July 22nd, 2006 at 2:17pm]
[ mood | peaceful ]

Quote of the Day : "We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of the dream. Wandering by lone sea breakers, and sitting by desolate streams. World losers and world forsakers, for whom the pale moon gleams. Yet we are movers and the shakers of the world forever it seems."
-Arthur O'Shaunessey

So I got back from mystery trip on Tuesday just to leave for Lakeview on Monday. We traveled to Chicago (again) and Minneapolis and it was a lot of fun. In Chicago we played Whirly Ball (from which I still have nasty bruises), Lincoln Park zoo, Harry Caray restaurant, Navy Pier, and the Art Institute. It was fun. Then we drove like all day. We ended up at Mall of America in Minnesota. The next day we went to a Twins baseball game and then went to a church service and saw Jason Radical Russell one of the makers of the Invisble Children movie. That was soo cool! He spoke and we even got to meet him afterwards and tell him all the stuff that our church has done for Invisble Children. He seemed pretty impressed and I might have freaked out a little when we got our picture with him and he put his arm around me lol. Then we worked at this place called Feed My Starving Children and made meals that they send overseas to starving people. Our group made enough meals to feed 17 kids for a whole year. Pretty impressive. Then we drove back to Chicago. A lot.

When you spend pretty much 2 whole days on the road it can be fun. We saw Amish people and brought food from them, played Mad Libs, sang along to random songs, wished I Found You Miss New Booty would come on the radio, talked about how much you have to pee, threw tampons at the random awkward boy in the 12 passenger van, wondered why Wisconsin didn't smell like cheese, saw a lot of the 10,000 lakes in Minnesota, stopped at a gas station in Coon Valley Wisconsin, and on the way back from Minneapolis I told everyone the entire story of Gone With The Wind. It took almost an hour and a half and everyone liked it, I swear.

So mystery trip was fun. And camp is going to be fun too. Since I got back me and my mom have been dorm shopping, my dad took me to go look at cars, I've babysat twice and will again tonight, and got to hang out with some of my favorite girls. I also found a song, Everything is You by Eli Young Band, that I'm pretty much obsessed with. I don't think I've stopped listening to it in like 3 days. You should check it out. Life is pretty good right now.

Earlier today You Drive Me Crazy was on TV. I like that movie. My favorite part is at the end when they're at the dance and they made up and everything. And Melissa Joan Hart goes "Now, who are we making jealous?" and the boy goes "Everyone Nicole, everyone." I don't know why I like that part so much but it just made me smile really big lol. Have a nice day.
<3 Casey

it's a beautiful thing

The Astros are playing right now [Sat, July 8th, 2006 at 3:35pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]

Quote of the Day : "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”
-Maria Robinson

Howdy, I'm Casey a freshman business major from Houston Texas but more importantly I am the proudest member of the fightin' Texas Aggie class of 2010! AAAAA!! That's how I'm supposed to introduce myself now. I kinda like it.

I had new student conference Thursday and Friday. It went pretty well I guess. There was a lot of walking and a lot of meetings and a lot of cute boys. It was pretty fun I guess. I signed up for my classes which was stressful. I went to the computer lab at the business school with 2 schedules that would be perfect and didn't get anything on them. Once the system opened it was pretty much every man for himself. It's dumb cause to be in the honors program you get in one honors class, but there weren't very many available. So I had to base my entire schedule around which honors class I got into. I ended up getting the honors history class I wanted, but from 5:45 to 7 on Mondays and Wednesdays. And on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday my 1st class isn't until 1:50. Which is good and bad. Not really at all what I wanted. Tuesdays and Thursdays my 1st class is at 11:10 and my next one isn't until 3:55. And on Thursday nights I have my lab for astronomy from 7:30 to 10:30 which I'm kinda excited about cause I want to take astronomy. So I don't know if I'm going to have much of a social life cause all my classes are late, but hopefully nothing fun goes on until after 7 and not on Thursdays. I'm gonna have to learn how to study in the mornings I guess. It's weird. Not really the schedule I wanted, but oh well.

One of the highlights of my NSC was calling some department and finding out that I placed out of stat. I am still kinda in a state of shock. I walked out of the test feeling lucky if I got a 2, and I got a 3. I'm really happy about that.

In the mail today I got my dorm stuff. I got a dorm that I wanted on the side of campus I wanted so that's good. My room mate it from Dumas Texas. I facebooked her and looked her up on myspace and she has neither. So I googled her. Apparently she plays golf and is in 4-H. There was one picture of her, she and this other boy feeding pigs that was in the newspaper. So she kinda seems like a hick. Dumas is up in the panhandle. That's really far away. I just hope we get along. Maybe I'll call her later. I want to but I'm kinda nervous to lol.

So yah, that's about it. Now that all this stuff is like finalized it's finally hitting me that college is really really close. It's weird. I hope I get along with my room mate and my classes are good and I make new friends. Ahh. Have a nice day!
<3 Casey

it's a beautiful thing

random entry [Mon, July 3rd, 2006 at 11:54pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Quote of the Day : "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."
-Robert Frost

My dad and brother are still on their trip. I think I might be jealous. They have been to Baltimore, Washington, and Philadelphia for baseball games. They went to Annapolis to the Navy Academy, Hershey Pennsylvaina, Dover Delaware, Gettyburg, and all the places in the cities. They get to be in Philadelphia on 4th of July. It's cute. But they keep calling like every 2 hours and that's a little awkward. My brother was like what do you want from the Hershey gift shop? I don't know, what do they have? Everything, you could get a charm for your charm bracelet. Um, no Kyle, I'm ok. But they did get me a shirt that says NAVY on it from Navy, so that's cool.

Me and my mom have been hanging out a lot and I've been sleeping really late. Yesterday we were looking at old photo albums and I found out that her high school boyfriend was 5 years older than her and saw that my dad wore like these really nasty really short cut offs in public. I'm embarrassed for him and maybe even myself and that was like 25 years ago.

Tonight me, my mom, Kara, and Tara went to the Astros game. We won, yay! It was fun. And I think we met Andy Pettitte's son. These random kids were sitting behind us when the player's were stretching and it was probably him. Justin the security gave a ball to Tara, "our new friend." It was cute. We waved to ball boy, but no signs or notes or anything. There were fireworks after the game that were major amazing. I liked it a lot a lot a lot. But I didn't like the drunk people behind us. This one lady was like standing up and dancing and screaming and shaking her boobs in the middle of the fire works. And I heard this one guy say, "If I had a nickel for everytime I saw a girl as pretty as you, I'd have 5 cents." I laughed a little.

So I saw on the old movies channel that The Wizard of Oz is coming back to theaters in November. I'm pretty much excited. I got an e-mail from JoJo from UM ARMY and I think he might have a crush on me. I have new student conference on Thursday and Friday. It's gonna be good, I hope. I'm pretty excited about meeting all the cute boys at A&M. It will be glorious. Have a nice day and a happy and safe 4th of July!!
<3 Casey

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

Hmmmm [Wed, June 28th, 2006 at 5:43pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

Quote of the Day : "She was made up of all of these good and these bad things...She was the books she read in the library...Part of her life was made from the tree growing rankly in the yard. She was the bitter quarrels she had with her brother whom she loved dearly. She was Katie's secret, despairing weeping. She was the shame of her father staggering home drunk...She was all of these things and of something more...It was something that had been born into her and her only."
-A Tree Grows in Brooklyn on Francie

I want to write. I really want to write. I love to write. I wish I could write a million times better than I do. I wish I could fill novels with my stories and my ideas. I wish I could do it all and that people would want to read what I write, have a good opinion of what I write, and want to read more.

Today I cried. I didn't cry because I laughed too hard or I was watching something sad on TV or because something sad happened to me. I cried because I read a book and it was so powerful that I cried. The past couple days I've been reading "A Tree Grows in Brooklyn." My mom suggested it and I'm really glad she did. I really really like it and am now on page 319 out of just under 500. It's really really good. It's about this little girl growing up in Brooklyn during the 1910's in a family so poor that they struggle for the quarter a day it takes to feed them. It's just about their life and it's so good.

There's this one scene where a teenage girl named Joanna is walking down the street. She has a baby and no husband, but smiles as she walks the carriage down the sidewalk with her head held high, smiling at those she passes trying to ignore their cruel looks and whispers. She is proud of her beautiful baby but the other women don't think she shouldn't be because she has husband and therefore no right to be proud. Some of the women pick up rocks and throw them at Joanna and she stops smiling. One of the rocks hits the baby and blood starts to trickle from his head. The baby doesn't even cry out loudly, as if he knows about his shameful existence. The rocks and the blood force Joanna off the street and the stones out of the womens' hands and back to the ground. This scene was just so powerful to read. Especially with Francie, the little girl, takes the baby carriage back to Joanna's door step and puts something very dear to her underneath the baby's blanket. I bet this was supposed to show how cruel people can be, but it showed me how powerful writing can be.

I love reading and have been doing a lot more of it over the past couple months. It had been a while and now I'm very content curling up in my bed and spending hours reading that I normally probably would have just been watching Full House reruns. This book is really really good and just makes me want to read more when I finish. It also makes me want to write. So I've opened my Word documents that contain scores of pages of my own stories and I know what I want to write next, I know how I want my tale to end, but I don't do it. I don't know if it's because I don't want it to end or is it that I know how dumb it is and how embarrassed I'd be if anyone ever did read it. I've wanted to be a lot of things. An olympic ice skater, a vet, a teacher, president of the United States, a singer, a broadway star, a professional shopper. Now I want to be a writer. Really, really bad.
<3 Casey

5 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

And so it is [Sun, June 25th, 2006 at 10:47pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Quote of the Day : "We don't know who we are until we see what we can do."
-Martha Grimes

Home from UM ARMY. It was good, as always. It was different from other years in good and in not so good ways. The church we stayed in was a lot smaller and the camp itself was smaller. There were 87 people there and about 60 were from John Wesley. That kinda sucked cause there weren't very many new people to meet. And the programs aka stuff at night was somewhat non existent, that was a let down. But we did get to watch High School Musical, the band from our church played at worship and that was really cool, I got to room with some of my favorite girls ever, I loved my group, and I had a bunch of fun. Big surprise.

The 1st day we all just got there and were in the fellowship hall and I saw JoJo from Palestine and I got really excited. I didn't know he was going to be there this year and then his mom ended up being my leader. There was also Samantha from Canton, and then Ryan, Will, Megan, and Steven from John Wesley. We worked on Tony's house. He's in a wheel chair and is pretty much stuck in his house all day everyday unless he goes to the doctor. He lives with his 2 cats and is really lonely and has 2 of the fattest cats I've ever seen named Mickey and Minnie. He loved having us there and we really need to go back and visit him to give him some company. We painted all the downstairs of his house, built him 2 new wheelchair ramps, put bars in his bath tub, and put down new floor in the kitchen. A few of us worked hard the whole time, a few others spent most of the time complaining about our leader. But we got the work done and his house is much better and Tony much happier because of it.

I'm pretty sad that that was my last UM ARMY. I really want to come back and be a college assistant if I can. I hope I can, I realliy hope I can. It was so fun. I really liked working and playing and growing in my faith and all the people there and singing in the car to random songs and staying up really late to make prank phone calls and raid the kitchen. So many good times.

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Since I've been home I've pretty much either been sleeping or on the internet. My house was crazy while I was gone, the game room got painted and I really love it and the landscapers fixed the front yard and my parents have been cleaning like crazy cause a bunch of my dad's friends from college came over tonight. I missed my mom and dad and my bed and my shower and my computer and my car. But I'm still happy from UM ARMY and I'm in a really good mood. Yay for everything! Have a nice day!
<3 Casey

1 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

UM ARMY is love [Thu, June 15th, 2006 at 6:58pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

Quote of the Day : "And now here is my secret, a very simple secret; it is only with the heart that one can see rightly, what is essential is invisible to the eye."
-Antoine De Saint-Exupery

So UM ARMY is really soon and I'm really excited. Last night after bible study me, Kara, Anna, and Megan hung out for a while and talked about UM ARMY for a long time. It's so good. Anyone who goes can just talk about how amazing it is for hours, I know I have. I can't wait to go sleep on the floor and work hard all day and then take showers in a locker room and then play fun games and have worship and stay up late and then wake up early to do it all over again. It's going to be awesome. The last 3 years have, and this year will not be an exception. I just hope that I have a really good group, which is probable because there pretty much is no such thing as a bad group. I am sooo excited.

UM ARMY is always the high light of my summer and I'm going on Sunday. I can hardly contain my excitement. Every year it gets better. Every year the people there are just amazing, every single one of them is just so happy and so on fire for God and just so excited to be there. I love it. I love it I love it I love it!! One of the best things about UM ARMY are these little books that everyone has that people write it. Kind of like a yearbook for the week and all your friends write nice things in them, it's awesome. And all this thinking about UM ARMY made me want to think of them, so I'm going to. Mostly for myself lol, so feel free to stop reading.

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Gross [Thu, June 8th, 2006 at 2:46pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Quote of the Day : "Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

My house is pretty much crazy right now. 2 years ago we discovered that there was a big bee problem in our house. With the pounds and pounds of honeycomb and thousands upon thousands of bees up in the corner of our house by the game room. And you can't kill the bees because their wings cool the honey and if the bees aren't there the honey will drip over everywhere and make an even bigger mess. So this time 2 years ago guys in bee suits and everything came and cut holes on the outside of our house and in our game room wall. Well they're back and they have to do it again. So we had to rent a lift and hire the bee guys to come and take the bees away and cut out all the honeycomb. So we have to move everything in our gameroom and take all those records off the wall and lay down towels and plastic from the front door up the stairs and into the game room because they're gonna be taking down dripping honey and muddy shoes. It's just gross. In addition to that they had to take down this big bush thing because it was blocking how they have to get to it from the outside. While they're at it, they're cutting down this other tree in our front yard because the roots are like messing up our sidewalk and can disrupt the slab and stuff. So as I type this there's a gigantic pile of branches taking up the entire front yard and that's at least 6 feet tall. Gross.

I pretty much hate everything at my house right now. The chainsaws are making my cats go psycho and giving me a headache. And then the bee guys are coming tonight so they'll be asleep so there's gonna be strange men in bee suits going up and down my stairs until tomorrow morning. Last time they didn't leave until like 5 and they were here for 2 nights. And another thing that makes this even worse is that it's costing like thousands of dollars to get all this done and so me and mom probably won't be able to go up to Connecticut to visit my cousins this summer. That sucks a lot. I miss them and I want to see Amy and Scott's baby.

VBS is pretty much really wearing me out, but I like it. I'm kinda sad that tomorrow is our last day. There's gonna be a big performance and all the kids are gonna sing all the songs that have been stuck in our heads all week. It's gonna be cute. I need to remember to bring my camera and take pictures of all my super cute slash somewhat annoying 3rd graders.

I just hope that all this bee stuff is over with soon and doesn't come back. Last time the guy said that they've probably marked our house for some strange reason and will probably keep coming back. Great. And now our front yard looks really bare without that tree and my mom's probably gonna cry cause there's not gonna be birds in it anymore. Boo. Have a good day all.
<3 Casey

5 don't think they can keep it all in | it's a beautiful thing

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